Being Emo / Cutting

I am 14 and I was classified as 'emo' from about 11-Now Maybe?? I guess it started from the bullying and then the emo-ness(??) started to call more bullies, I was really happy as a young child... but in my teenage years i've been depressed and my emotions are flared.. I regret the cutting, back then it was a relief, but now... I'm just wondering why it helped me so much. I think therapy really helped also, in fact i'm still in therapy for the depression and anxiety. I dont think I was that 'dark' stereotype, I was always trying to look at the bright side but then it was miles away. I never really wanted to die, I just wanted to never have to go in public I'm just a guy that loves to be alone.. although there are some people I would just give up without.

Well, most people still consider me emo... but I feel like I have 2 different 'me's in my body, one is really depressed (The 'Emo') and then the other one is just annoyingly happy.. and together, they make me Dexus (Would have put my real name here, but... there could be some creepy fucks on here).