Why are you not a Christian?

There may be a higher power but for me I'm a little on the fence

It's asking for blind faith in something you can't see/hear/feel/touch and you're just supposed to accept that he works in mysterious ways? That bad things continuously happen to good people to test their faith. So if there is a God and you believe in him why would he try and test you? You already believe, why shake the faith?

And then I am met with well he tests you so he can give you better blessings..is not being a good person enough? Is not going out of your way to help someone not good enough?

There is too much bad happening to people that I know are honestly good for their to be a God testing them.

On the other hand I feel that maybe if I did believe, things would line up for me.

Supposedly. I don't believe, but I don't not believe....if that makes sense.