What does your screen name mean?

Many things are behind "Squawkward"
I got the original name when I saw a random meme, which was "hawkward" I adapted it to "Squawkward" because I can "talk" to seagulls. I then looked up the words meaning, it means a um, "relationship" between a human and a bird of prey. I mean a intimate relationship :P. Anyway idk how but the name stuck